Big Spend

sat, sep 30th

it's raining heavy since 11am..
my head just hurts terribly!
rain..pls pls stop!!

i met iren n weixiang earlier for lunch..
stopped by teban to grab some things..
my dear com is no longer in the room..
felt bit of loss...

yesterday was definitely better!!
d retail therapy with lydia n amelia at northpoint, wisma, taka n suntec was goodie!!
two tops, one knickers, n gucci rush2 perfume`
i got a free travel kit as well for d perfume.
NICE.

was supposed to chill at harry's at nite..but amelia got to hurry home..
both of us headed to kbox instead.
i was so impressed with lydia!!
ppl, do u noe of any malay fren who can sing many chinese songs?
there's no "hanyupinyin" in kbox okay..
n yet, lydia could sing along with d chinese characters played..
"hen li hai"

i'm gonna go practise my singing..cant possibly lose to her..LOLz..
nah..got no time..
sch work got me bummed.

bbq n moon cake festival

thurs, sep 28th

had two tests yesterday..
nervousness almost got me!
i think i will do badly for my theory..i missed out one qn..geez!

headed to parc oasis after..
met nicole's uni classmates..
they were nice..
food was gd!
vodka shots, wine shots..=D
pam actually wanted to help me get a bf.."rich" as one of d criteria..lolz..
i noe she din mean it.

havent seen geri n liyan in a while til last nite..=)

anyway, was all gd n fun.
i bet tml's gonna be hell a lot more fun!
shopping spree n more drinks..HAHAHAHA~!!!
amelia must go!!

out..soon..got a discussion..

scary assessment

tues, sep 26th

watched last nite's sg idol results show..
as expected, hady won.
but i thought jonathan did pretty well too.
anyway, its just a title..it aint so important..

i had insomnia last nite..the worst nite ever!!
my eyeballs were so active they cant seem to rest..damn.
must be da stress..i'm always like this when skills assessment are round the corner..
my classmates' presentation on stress management din help at all..
additional headache i got from the scent of the aromatherapy they deco ard d tut room.
haiz..

i really need to work harder tonite for my skills..
must be confident n hope all goes well!

made a friend. =)

just the beginning

mon, sep 25th

my account's hydrated again..=D
i'm gonna keep it going as smoothly as possible..
else, i'll be thirsty by the third week.

just saw the examination dates and time..
my first paper is on 27th oct, at 3-5pm
oh god, i wonder wat time nikki is holding her celebration.
hope to be on time.

my muslim classmates have started fasting for their hari raya..
guess wat, i chip in too..poor tummy, its growling loudly already.
prays hard it can last til 5pm?
i cant wait til 7pm le..

have to mug hard later in d nite!
yawns~

stress building, i need to meditate

Sun, sep 24th

been a pretty gd girl lately..
did household chores, two more assignments pending,
one theory test n 2 skills test next week..
worries i shant think abt.

i've roughly did my calculations for my expenses this coming month..
turns out quite ok, n i guess i'll be starting on some serious savings plan!
its so important!! cannot keep spending ya..i'm turning 20 in jan.
So tat's my one of my goals.

mm, i've been dreaming a lot. no kid..i sleep n i dream, yea..
its full of colors, so real.. but i seem to forget them so easily once i woke up.
i'm contemplating on leaving a tiny dream notebk by my bedside..
so i can jot the details of my dream..
i could even analyse my life situation by myself.."chuckles" (if its tat simple_)

busy busy .. how i wish to stone.

i'm drained

thurs, sep 21st

yesterday i received a call from cousinpauline.
we spoke for a while.
basically she's on my dad's side saying i should give my dad the com's password..
if not, my data will be gone cos he's gonna reformat it..
i don give a damn..really.
when i decided i'm leaving, its either i bring the com with me or i dont.
i wont be bothered to even go back again to continue using.
he's an idiot.
making things so troublesome!.. wat does he think?
i will still go back to use the com? no way!!
even if i did prefer it to my sis's desktop..
i will never share it with that B****

its really no point saying.."blood is thicker than water"
towards him, i'm utterly disappointed..
i'm sorry i cant see or recall his good points.
cos all his bad ones are crowded ard my eyes.
i cried cos i could never anticipate such a thing!
in the end, i told ah girl jie the password..
i'm just too tired to play this game...
let him have it the way he wants.
i'll prove myself!
i just wanna succeed!

time to hit the books.

i can never have the best of both worlds

tues, sep 19th

i slept late last nite so..
kinda had a bit of prob waking up on time for class today..
mum's van had a case of punctured tyre this morning..
$$ spent again..haiz.
she is working so hard..24 hrs without sleep already..

was informed by classmates that i have to go for nafa this thurs.
i skipped it the other time, i'm not going this time.
really hated running!
went to chinese physician n got my old ailment "ankle" rubbed hard!
he had wanted to twist it back..no way i said.
then, he continued to mummified my ankle.
i really want to bring my bandaged ankle to sch n show it as evidence tat i'm not fit for nafa!
y cant they just mark no participation?

anyway, i enjoyed my mental health lecture as usual..
topic on eating disorder.
i think i'm one aspect short of being bulimic..
i binge , no purge..keke!!
so it ends up all to fats~
owells, i should never go to that stage.
its a horrible vicious cycle!

mm.. now the room(not mine) is stinking of medicated lotion..
i think sis will kill me..
=p

u say it best, when u say nothing at all

caught in the rain

mon, 18th sep

even thou mum fetched me to sch today, i was caught in the rain..
got a bit lost at the chemical life sciences building..
just when i thought i need help, i opened this door...
and once again, i saw the familiar health science block..=p

i'm gonna be quite tied up these days with preparing for tests n presentations..
i may have to stay back in school tml to use the com..6pm?
my sis is so not considerate.
i'm fed up.
watever..
i shall go to sleep.
laters~

full n up

sun, sep 17th

shall start with some happy moments i had on friday n sat..
then down to d breakdown i had just now with grandma..

right after class on fri : jamie, lydia, ben and i went n got our steamboat ingredients at tiong bahru plaza.. played ps 2 games..n had a great steamboat session at ben's house.
the soup that we prepared is so gd!!! i'm thinking of it now! =)

but, let's wait til dinner time..
have got research to do..(jus takin some time out for this entry)

then at abt 10pm, i joined the gang fer drinks at siem reap..
darren's pre-b'dae celebration..2 waterfalls real strong he took..

Sat : met up wan er at jp coffeebean..then we walked ard..
after, iren joined n we went to orchard.
on da train, she told us abt her pri 3 student tat she's giving tuition to.
i'm impressed she havent gave up..
cos if i was the teacher, i will be quite pissed with such a student. difficult!
so we grab a bite at suki sushi,
shopped a bit..
wan er n me got tired feets from waiting n standing too long...
i can never have long hair.
it's too much of a hassle to handle n beautify it..(there's a variety of hair clips n stuff..arhh~)

n..i went back to teban today..
intend to use the com for hw..
dad is so evil.
he pulled out the wires for internet.
i cant use.
no choice but to save my important documents in my thumbdrive.
he's out to spite me!
i dont want to give in yet everyone is saying "let it go..
since he's such a cheapo, just give him the com"
grandma was at home,
we talked.
we cried.
we gave up on him.

i also packed the rest of my stuff into the big luggage.
will have to move them all here when mum is free to drive me.
earlier, he called.
definitely to scold me, he wants to know the password into my windows.
but i seriously don wanna talk or to see him.
yeah.
don need to rite.
i don wanna think abt it.

should just concentrate on sch.
i managed to catch the movie.
"friends with money"

ate two snow skin mooncake for breakfast.
=p

heart racing, fingers tapping constantly..

thurs, sep 14th

i'm in school now..
class will not end til 6pm..
surprisingly, i woke up early today..
had my breakfast alone..
reached d sch library n picked up d straits times,
browse thru nonchalantly..
its quite a nice experience, i cant remember d last time i touched d dirty recycled paper!
anyway, i came across the LIFE! section..
saw this movie tat is starring jennifer aniston, n others..
the title goes like this--> _____ with money?
okies, went to check it out.
the blank is "friends"

i'm tempted to watch it immediately LA!
yet, my two dear friends are not making themselves available!
so, wat to do?
watch by myself mah?
=(

we shall see...

oh, just recalled..
today's 3032 lecture topic is " substance abuse"
guess wat?
alcohol~!!
i don think i belong to any one of the reasons for abusing alcohol..
perhaps seeking comfort from it will match.
cos i simply luv it..

gtg now, got a discussion.
bb

some songs i like

luv d songs!!

shayne ward - no promises
minnie riperton - lovin you
gwen stefanie - cool
sarah brightman - all i ask of you
vanessa williams - save the best for last
damien rice - the blower's daughter

=D

yummylicious

wed, sep 13th

these 3 days, i've been waking up so early..=(
i wld rather class start later in d day..

luckily today, 3 hrs of lessons.
then, me n da gals headed to waffletown for food..
imagine a plate of fried chicken n rice..
plus a waffle topped with ham n egg n maple syrup!
it's plain yummy~!!
=D

after tat, michelle's dad gave us a lift back hm..
i felt so satisfied,
i seriously wanted to doze off immediately..

counting down 12 days to pay day..(^_*)

typical day..alone

tues, sep 12th

class started at 9am today with our presentation on stoma care..
i was the 1st speaker..
oddly enuff, i din get my panic attack this time.
i guess that's bcos i din had to talk a lot..=p

at 11am, my fav lecture: mental health psycho..
topic on self-destructive behaviour?
ppl who have a lot of unhappiness n anger in them, (anger inwards)
instead of taking out on others,
they put the blame on themselves..
inflict pain..
suicidal thoughts n behaviour..
this would be d first type.
of cos, the more serious type would be to commit suicide right away
(in their mind, they knew tat d only solution is to die..)
BUT THAT"S A VERY VERY FOOLISH THOUGHT duncha think>?
in life, there's so many paths..
y give up?


as for clinical skills today, learnt basic trauma life support!
things to assess n do are basically what paramedic would do
when there's a victim injured or etc..
our lecturer got exasperated with half of d class,
when they strapped wan ting up n carried her outside the lab.. (foolin ard)
lolz! she's pretty nice..most lecturers wld have scolded or punish us?/

went back hm after.
too tired to stay for 4pm lecture..


ps: have to treasure n love ur friends and family..tell it to their face..we need one another^^

i want a break..=(

sun, sep 10th

met up with michelle for brunch at clementi food centre..
my favorite pork porridge stall is closed..=(
had fried beehoon instead..
not a gd choice since i'd supposedly decided not to eat 'unhealthy food'
yea..those oily n fried ones..

afterwhich, we went to taka n walk ard..
saw these punchers whereby u can punch designs out of it
n create ur own craft n make a scrapbk or so..
so pretty!
i like d one of d autumn leaf, so including mine..
michelle bought 3 designs for only 10 bucks, complimentary of d puncher..

also, we practically saw a thousand or more book titles from kinokuniya n borders
while browsing for 'Allan and Barbara Pease' books..
oh, michelle actually wanted to get my cousin's book, 'TEN' from me at 10 bucks..
haiyr!! it costs double tat! lalalala..
by then, both of us started yawning..
lolz..funny crap.
ended up not getting any books.

okie, i saw this man in da train..
he is bald in the middle of his head,
some pathetic hair growing from the sides which are long n unkept!
he was entering the train n had this weird , suspicious look in his eyes..
i find totally disgusted! n ended up laughing softly n telling michelle abt it..
usually, i'm not mean la..
but i simply cant help it..
y is it that they don seek professional help?
or perhaps even simplier, trim it or shave it`?
????

skip.
came back to teban to use com for hw..
things in my room have shifted.
don noe who did it.
bedsheets off n etc..
hey, it's still my room unless i moved everything out..which i havent..
so, back off!
i need a plan.
"mission #%@$%!!" to catapult my computer!
thinking..

i don wan to go back to sch..=(

surprises

Sat, 9/9

yesterday, went clubbing at devils with wendy, elaine n jennifer fr same lecture grp..
jennifer sure dances boldly!
but wendy n her sis left early..
i was pretty much gone last nite at 2am..
music was gd as usual, i'd probably shouldnt drink beer with vodlka..separately i meant..
haiz.
i cant believe it.
nauseous feeling i hate.

was supposed to meet wan er n iren early today..
but obviously, i was late LA..
its not easy to let go of my comfy pillow when i felt so giddy..
kbox session for almost 3hrs..
tons of pixs taken.
my eyebag monster is so scary..
dinner at sakae..

i think i mentioned it b4,
if we try n din succeed, tat shitty feeling may be so overwhelming for us
tat we lose confidence in all..
or perhaps know tat it's better to try then be a wimp!
the saying goes ' god shuts a door but opens a window for ya'
i certainly want that to be true.
optimism goes a long way for us

failure comes strong for those who dares

crabby

thurs, sep 07

a long day in sch..tired.
d oncology tutorial, role-play n stuff..
ridwan got me laughing n crying like nobody's business,
when he acted out a role of a lady suffering from mets cancer..
extremely hilarious!!

had dinner at jurong west st 42..
with gram n family...
XO beehoon crab, fried rice, frog-leg..i'm feeling so full arh~!@@

rite now, my bro is singing MLTR's song..
boy, i wish i could shut my ears!!
yea, not nice at all.
=p

i just found out i've got 3 presentations on the same week! a month more to prepare.
how wonderful`
i'm in for a ride thru panic attacks..so sick!
n yes, i'll be so busy i guess esp next wk>?

take a breath~
i can do it..
pamper myself 1st!
tml nite>>(",)

adapting

wed, sep 06

i moved most of my things over to mum's on mon nite..
change of environment.
adapting to it..
it's not as easy as it seems..
owells, shant write abt da details..

i missed using my com so i went back to teban today after sch ended.
had to finish up some hw..
before going back..
so troublesome!!
maybe i need to invest in a labtop>?
mum's room cant accomodate my com..
hai..

when will things ever settle..><
neverending

how messed up

sun, sep 3rd

i'm hungry..makes me think of michelle..lolz..
in particular to her testi of FOOD` to me..=)

i seriously don noe wat to do now..
supposedly moving out my other batch of things to mum's..
but no one answers my call..argh~!
hw not done, clothes to tidy when i get to mum's..
but all's not gonna happen unless she picks up my call.
haiz..angry n helpless.

sch resumes tml,
not keen as usual..cos projects are piling!!

tell u wat, i cant sit ard doin nothing n wait..
an empty stomach does makes me mad!
=D
shall keep calling da mama!!

sorries?

sat, sep 2nd

how enriching n fulfilling life would be to live on a fast lane..
but with no time at all to stop n take a breath,
n appreciate the fine things in life> tat i dont reckon..

this break week has been rather eventful for me..
i practically did most of da stuff i had in mind..
moving, out with galfrens, chill out, a movie, retail-therapy..
n for 3 days a week, i savored my fav foods at clementi food centre..
i luv..

its good, these times that we spend cos i do appreciate doing this little things that may seem nothing to others but its quite a big thing for me..hah..
n eventhou i seem to be doing it so often..=p
d moment i can find time for it..>;)

i was out swimming with wan er at je sports complex.
my 1st time there (its built like a billion donkey yrs ago?)
was pretty cool..except..
lazy pool was tiring for me la..weird.
i prefer things under my control..d lazy pool is so not my taste..lolz..
my clumsy behaviour displayed. haiyr!

n thanks" to wan er..
she caught me saying these words "that kinda thing"
a few times today n concluded tat as my fav quote.
cut that out!
i din even realised..n yes pls.. do not keep repeating in front of mi yea
=\

friday drinks

sat, 2nd sep

n again assuming it friday's entry..

i met up with michelle for lunch at clementi..
we adored the food there!!
could be our new hangout place after i moved.
basically just walk ard..bookshop, ntuc, watsons..
down to mac to sit n talk..
was great!

after tat, went to nicole's place..
together with auntie, we drove down to downtown east..
wendy's birthday chalet!
her family members were so nice..so hospitable (was it spelt this way?)
but i din stayed longer..rather apologetic..

...my eyes have been tearing so oftenly i wonder if it's injured..
i did rub my eyes..but it cant be da reason..?
so tiredz! now i look like an alien, one eye small-one eye big.

come to think of it, my astigmatism is so high..
it has even caused photophobia in me..
not a gd sign!
i always, almost, am squinting my eyes in pictures..!

news.
have to wear formal for nicole's birthday party.
ArGHH~!