disconnected somehow

tues, Oct 31st

Wah.. end of october that soon~
my two weeks of break will commence right after 12 noon on thurs.
70 mcq qns for my 3033 paper today..
20 or > qns aint sure!
*cross my fingers* ^^

i've been trying in vain for the past few days to publish my previous entry..
connection prob.
look like a fool staring at d com screen!
geez...

oh ya, i promised myself to study hard this round..
n as usual, it never happens..
unless someone steals my living room television,
i reckon this "hobby" of mine will forever be sabotaging!
lolz~

hmm..skip facial this month, i'm going KL..=D
stiff neck!
aching back!!
time for a massage!!
;D

a tiny break

sat, oct 28th

phew! one paper down..
three modules in one paper, how tricky~

last nite's celebration for nicole's 19th birthday,
food was nice, drinks even better..=p
alot of ppl..
caught up with moses, clement, mingrui n others..
all was great..
had a tiny break off from the books`

oh ya, one thing to mention before i forget..
i noe it's no big deal to most ppl..
but, wendy DROVE me back last nite!..not just me..liyan too..
okie, the point is..it's my 1st experience sitting in a vehicle drove by my Galfren..
same age as me, yes i'm only 19..
n not my mum, not my older friends..
n it's wayyy..COOL~
lolz..
wat kinda person am i
it has come to a point of my life that i have
to accept that i'm going to be in tat society..
adults, responsibility,money,bills n stuff..
yeah`
a harsh reality!

my friends are getting on so well..
y should i be any different..
=)

did a pretty manicure!! lol

shout!!

tues, 24th Oct

have got this sudden burst of emotions..
i want to shout so badly!!!!
anything,anywhere, anyone?
jon became my easy target..he got me even more pissed by
bringing his guyfriend back home..
ArrrrHHHHHHHHHHH~

it's crazy!.. feeling all like this..
alrite..i will cool..
just need to shout a little longer..=/

i'm listening to David Grey's - This Years Love..
the song's so beautiful i'm beginning to feel nice n warm><
helping.
heard this song from the movie 'The Girl Next Door'..
loved it totally!!

confusing feelings humans have

mon, oct 23rd

i'm stuck at home.
at this time of the night, it's no biggie..
but just as i thought, the next 2-3 days or perhaps the whole wk..
my lecture notes are gonna be my companion!
tat's crazy enough..
i only realize the enormity of my plight..haiz..

okie, sidetrack a bit..
recently, sis has had quite a number of "bees" flying ard her..
her night life's been occupied ever since..
gd for her, i would say!
but i really wonder how one is able to pick one "suitable" guy for themselves?
each has their merits, not to mention the committment they've shown..

do u like or do u love?
or.. does it start from attraction.. to love..>?
i cant tell,
from the examples i see ard me; it starts like lightning, n pretty much short-lived.
there aint everlasting love.

am i weird?

sat, oct 21st

been having my 12 hrs sleep for 2 nights in a row..
am i wasting my time on my bed? =p
i noe i have more important things to be doing..
like the most crucial one would be to mug hard!!
finished writing notes for one module only..
i'm feeling like a tortoise..geez!
some of my kiasu classmates could have been reading
their notes for d 3rd time by now>? Ha..

oya, i overspent again.
got to eat instant noodles for the next few days..
=D
i wonder if i can find eggs in da fridge?
mum sure din stock up on that!

5 n a half hrs in kbox today..
time flies so quickly i thought we only sang for 3 hrs..
not a gd deal to spend on a saturday thou..
still, i always feel nicer after singing..

went to this little jap restaurant for dinner after..
the wasabi they provided looks like mint ice cream..big!
lolz..

awaiting for 25th!!

to pretend or not pretend?

Oct 19th

kinda upset tat my fav mickey tee got dyed..
even more upset for my classmate for having to face the death of her dad..
i sincerely hope she gets thru it bravely..

while we're busy with our roles n duties in life,
we tend to overlook quite a bit of things,
we have have unknowningly caused some hurt,
in any way it's not meant to be.


"if tranquility fills my heart, there should be no anger"
mm.. but memories that painful cant be erased..
in the process....?

am i stubborn or wat

thurs, Oct 19th

i don get it sometimes.
is he sorry or forgetful?
i would think the latter..lolz..
was still quarrelling with jon 2 days ago..
but then, last nite..he actually offered to cook dinner for me..wt..?
its hard to fathom!
guys..
their mood swing so hastily..

okie, elaine to my rescue..
now i don havta be filmed in uniform..=)

boring day..intend to ask the gals over to my place for booze after school..

back to yesterday,
hang out with wan er at amk central for the afternoon..
horoscopes talk..lolz..
one aspect of my capricorn i find absurd.
i yearn for a fatherly figure to be my bf?
nononono..i don noe..
watever!!

getting ready for sch.

is sorry that hard to say?

tues, 17th Oct

wasnt on time for lecture..
was the 1st to be picked for the simulation skills thingy..wth..so unfair!!
i rebutted rite away..but there was no one to take my place..
MOST unwillingly!!
i gotta wear that stupid uniform n pretend to be a nurse in a real scenario this thurs..
pls, someone save me..!!!!

I'm suffering from a bad tummyache, fr morning..
could be indigestion, flatulence!
no pills for tat at hm..=(

today,someone told me that the word "sorry" is
as unimportant as the word "hello"..
i beg to differ~

y yes, it may be as simple just speaking it out..
but i'm certain it means a lot to the ones u've hurt!
(provided it's spoken from d heart)
n it comes with the message somehow tat
"oh, i know where i'm wrong.." or "i will never do this again"
but y does he not understand?
y must he keep hurting us, or himself?
does he need attention or love?
havent we talked abt it b4?
i can barely reach him..
kinship.
how hard to grasp!

simplicity is all i want

Mon, Oct 16th

random thoughts.
haze is bad.
i feel sad.
quarrelled with jon last nite,
cant be bothered.
he is rude.
nyp's really crowded now that the
other students from business courses etc are back from holis..
one thing nice, wan er's back..=)

i learnt a bit of jap from her today.
gonna practise it!!
serene sent me an email earlier,
i'm kinda worried for her..
i noe it must have been lonely for her in hk..
afterall, her loved ones arent there..

in life, we always have choices..
there's no perfect route..
just gotta go with one tat fits ur style..
even if we get setbacks,
we have to keep trying..countless of failures,
be afraid. be angry. be hopeful. be devastated.
but never let no one bring us down.
we'll rise to our own hills or mountain in the simplest way..
take it in our stride..
ya><

time to study hard

sun, 15th oct

woke up this morning at 11am..
slept really well..
seems like there's no more excuses not to study..
12 more days before d first paper..
"you can lose to anybody, but never yourself"

i'm gonna have to keep to this promise n steel myself!

just alot of things

Sat, Oct 14th

havent been blogging these days..
the com was down with virus..
i think it's recovering now from d help fr sis's fren.

let me recall wat i've been up to..
done with my last presentation this semester..
stayed at hm n be a pig on wed..
on thurs, i went to get my hair cut~
this time, not fr d same hairdresser..n now it looks really short! "-_-
i wont have to tie my hair up during attachment..great!

after tat, had a short chat with wan er down her block..
went to grandma's place for dinner..
i taught her some preventive measures i learnt from elderly lectures..
it is esp useful in her case..
got to noe she has osteoarthritis n rheumatoid arthritis..OH dear`
have got to treasure my loved ones!
talk to them, listen to them..spend time together..
aunt sarah told me tat staff nurses' salary has been revised to 2.5K..
i din noe nurses earn tat much..watever..

n yesterday, i met up with wan er n rong er at bugis in the evening..
walked abt, took neoprints card..=)
then, i tagged along to their bbq at east coast..
standing by the seaside, breezy n nice!!
i like!!
gd music i hear from my idol thruout d nite..lolz..
was planning to go back hm with wan er n watch no.8 pawnshop at 3am..
but i was fooled by the tv guide..haiz..

well, we thought of alternative programs to keep ourselves
entertained til 8am in d morning..=D
drank vodlka red ruby wi sprite..
games..
tv show..

"yu jian" adel after sending wan er back..
miss the times when i always seem to laugh at her..adorable!!

Got changed early n left for d airport to send serene off..
(keeps sending ppl..=p)
i really envy her..did i mention she has a loving family~?!

now, i'm really cmi..
have gotta sleep for 12 hrs straight!!

it's always food

tues, oct 10th

met up with wan er at jp after sch...
had cold desserts at d food court,
followed by k-pool..
one of those 'indoor sports' tat u just have to keep playing else,
u'll lose it..
if i get the chance, i'll learn to play golf from mint..
=D
it's never to0 late to learn!

since we had some time to spare b4 wan er's other appointment..
i dragged her to marina square..
intending to walk ard n get my face cleanser from d face shop..
unfortunately, it's ALWAYS out of stock~!
i'm gonna go look for it at other outlets..wish me luck!

we went into 'Genki Sushi' for dinner..
both of us had nothing but praises for it!!! ;)
almost like a gourmet show whereby u see d judges
commenting n describing d savored food~!
sushi, ramen miso soup base, chicken curry don..
everything was perfect^^
No doubt on going there again..

my heat disorders presentation coming up at 8am..
no lessons after..
great!

heat exhaustion

mon, oct 9th

wrapped up one presentation today..
there's 2 more on wed n thurs.

i went back hm at 3pm.. on d train, i felt giddy n dehydrated..
it's all d weather's fault!
i think i'm exhausted from the heat..stuffy!!
went to bed after i bathe..
adjusted the fan to full blast before i knock out..
slept for like 2 hrs straight.......

mint will be going back to kl tml..
argh! time passes so quickly, she wont be visiting til before new yr..=(
maybe i could go visit her after my exams>in november~

okie, now i gotta search for panadol..treat it

booze n lotsa fun!!.. music so therapeutic..

mon, oct 9th

just past midnight.
i'm sitting in front of d desktop while mint n sis are lying in bed..
these few days have been oh so lotsa gd drinks n music..
we went to forbidden city n one nite stand on fri nite..
music at one nite stand is superb! rock n roll..just too happening!!!
at abt 3am plus, we strolled to chinatown area n had supper..
so tired n satisfied!
=)

n on sat, we spent the day shopping at orchard..
n later.. we went to devils..
played pool with wendy!
had heinken..corona..listened n danced to live band..
was all great~!
but i got bored at abt 2am..n refused to move my legs anymore..lolz..

as for yesterday, i met up with wan er for karaoke!!! exhilarated..
i would have stayed longer n extended to 9pm if not for my relatives..
i think i'm going nuts..k-fever!!
n so, i bought dinner for them on my way back..
immediately got changed n we left for holland v..
mint n i n auntie n sis..chatted n i drank..
bailey's shake,champagne n 2 of which rahim blended..
for once, i thought he makes really nice drinks!
=D

argh..from tml, he will be at club street..
maybe i should be happier that he wont irritate me le ><
watever..

had really gotta shut my eyes.
bb^^

ps: is it the song or d singer tat causes heebie-jeebies in me?

tian xin

fri, oct 6th

i was pressing the tv remote control..til i came upon this channel 46..last nite..
guess wat?!
NO. 8 pawnshop show..
i was so happy i sms wan er telling her abt it..lolx

today after my one-hr lecture, i left for kranji station..
waited for mint to come from kl..
right now, we're still waiting for fang n cher..
arh!! we must go chill out tonite~!!
=D

but i don wanna miss tonite's episode..
unless i watch 3am's show><

gd frens, gd wine

thurs, oct 5th

yesterday was a blast!
i received d very lovely victoria secrets bra,
spent d whole afternoon chillin in at serene's..
watched "the devil wears prada"..
had steamboat with red wine!!
a get-together which serene organised..

me n her prepared the food..
believe it or not, before this..
i've never even tried cutting vegetables..soiled.
mum will kill me if she knows i 'indirectly' cooked for others!
sshhh~

ee,peishi n iren came at 7..
n i think d whole session ended at 8 30pm when all of us
simply couldnt fill in anymore..
serene got approved for her application to hk for 2 mths of exchange program..
so happy for her!!
i wish i was the one going..=p
hk..i just loved d city~!!
anyway, to satisfy my regret..i've already told serene to buy me some stuff..hee!
sadly, i gotta pay her back..lolz..definitely!

one disgusting thing happenned when i board a cab home last nite.
that cab driver apparently is one big fat nosy poker!! so irritating!!
read this.

np: eh, u look very unhappy with me isit? how come u have this kinda expression?
me: no.., i'm not!!
np: (goes on explaining..nagging..) u shouldnt have that kind of expression.. ppl will think u're unhappy with them..
me: (in my heart, i'm cursing!! who is he to lecture me?)
i simply kept quiet..cant be bothered!

i was so irritated by his questioning lo..
i was tired n i thought i always look pretty fierce when i don smile..still..
i'm not obliged to smile at everyone, am i>?
haiz..

there's only an hr of lesson tml..i guess i'll be d only one going/
=/
bored.
mint, fang n cher will be here tml.. oh great!
gotta plan where to go have fun..
weekends i like^^

ps: i passed my practical. =S

sakae

tues, oct 3rd

lesson ended at 12noon today..
was supposed to head home..
but decided to meet up with iren n ps for lunch..
ate at sakae..
i missed it..

after our little session of catching up..
iren left to teach..
me n peishi thought of watching a movie..
since the slots at eng wah wasnt available, we had to go to jp..
"john tucker must die"
pretty funny..
a gd flick to watch at home..with potato chips!!

i took a long ride back home, bus 30..
it's been a long while..
feels gd to listen to music n just breeze thru d journey looking at the evening scenary..
=D

looking forward to a better day tml~!!

living it

sun, oct 1st

2006 has been a quick one..
yet so many changes i see..
i guess everyone's growing up n maturing with the world..
like how my wisdom teeth is growing..
=p

in less than a month, i'll be sitting for my semestral exam.
i swear i have to do better this time..
have got one more skills practical on next thurs!
3 presentations the wk after!

i'm feeling all so tired thinking abt it.
i want an elixir~!!

i miss reading my charmed books..
don noe wat else to write..
(^_^)