getting ready for hk

I'm so looking forward to sat...i'll be going to hk..
wondered if everything is gonna be as perfect as i expect>? Like d food dere..shopping centres? Its my first time overseas but i'll be travelling alone cos my sis n two cousins will be leaving earlier on fri...how i wish i could go with them..if not for my attachment... so, i'll be meeting them at d hotel tat we booked over dere...a shuttle bus will bring me dere..
I'm very much excited n nervous abt it...me going alone~ er..kinda unsafe..i gotta be real careful n ASK ARD if i'm not sure..

my stomach feels uneasy...
i'm tired...
i still gotta pack my stuff to bring for my trip...
thanx to richmond..now, i've got a videocam for my trip...
anyone wans me to get them stuff from hk??

recount..

time to update!

Went to chinatown on sat to buy a new luggage(big one)..for hk trip..
It's black,polo..will be sharing with sis cos she will be leaving on fri morning, so d plan was to let her bring along d luggage whereas i need not have to check in luggage..ya..
Later in d evening, met up with iren n ee for dinner at swensens. Hung out n went to several music shop in search of a song by damien rice. Anyway, i bought secret garden's album which consists of their 4 previous cds..worth 40 bucks...new age songs..very enchanting n nice.

On sun, me n xiaogu(aunt) took mrt all d way to bedok, n a bus to joo chiat(san gu's place)..
Vesak's Day, so we waited till my cousin linda,cousin pauline n michelle came..n went to d temple nearby to pray. Also did some shopping at parkway parade. they played mahjong at night while me n michelle snacked on tidbits. For supper, me n cousin linda prepared grilled teriyaki hotdogs n hashbrown for everyone.. i loved hotdogs tat way! Cousin vincent was leaving for china tat night..only then did i realise he had So many jackets(adidas) when he asked our opinion which looks better...

On mon, san gu woke up d earliest n woke cousin linda n me up too..i thought i could sleep in longer since cousin linda had to use d bathroom, but only for a short while...hai..
We were meeting cousinlinda's in-laws at changi terminal..going to an island called "siwan"..not really spelt this way. Heard tat d seafood was gd dere. the bum boat journey was not easy..when i saw d boat moving here n dere, i immediately felt giddy n spinning...not to mention surviving thru d journey for abt an hr(almost)...i even got drenched a bit on d way back. Many ppl went dere too perhaps cos its public holiday. I felt so hot n stuffy all becos i wore d wrong outfit~ black tee n cargo pants...bad choice! Food was alright~ but not worth it for d journey..so exhausted after tat lah...
Arrived home to find out tat d survey shampoo paper i'm supposed to give it back to auntie was thrown away by one horrible woman..so angry n..embarassed..i could cause some trouble for auntie's sis. hope everything turns out fine.

Off to rest, laters!

Confused or Depressed??/

i'm a terrible person..perhaps cos i've always been like this...so detestable(tats wat my sis n bro will feel)..cos i'll retort them back with words tat will put them way off!! From wat they say, i'm frustrated...anyway, i figured i'm always like this whenever i returned home from somewhere...(Just gotta stay clear of ME)

These days had been tough..i've been thinking deeply abt whether i can continue nursing.....lots of considerations cropped up n i'm very much troubled by it till i finally could not stand it..n broke down last night...cried on my bed till i fell asleep(don even noe when)..
got some advice from auntie, saying i've got to break down my own protective wall n go forward! Most important thing is to be happy!!! I need to overcome myself..no choice le..

just quarrelled with sis. i don wanna lend her money..haiz..wat to do..

After a long time..

Finally! i haven really got d time to blog in these days..almost a wk i suppose..
i love friday..cos its d end of d wk..meaning i don have attachment tml... well, in total..i still got 5 more wks to go(attachment at sgh)

I've been so worn out these days.. found out tat i'm pretty dumb n lost~ while working...
a lot of theory tat i've studied, i simply forgot abt them..am embarrassed definitely.. so much to learn..yet not enough time..(or rather i din make an effort more?)
Hopefully, i can grasp wat i see n hear during my attachment period..

i just came back from holland v..zhiwei's n weixiang's birthday celebration..lol..yea some funny episodes occurred..

tml, i'm going out with cousin linda, n both aunts as usual...well, i ought to change some hk currency money for my trip coming up~
*Phew* my eyelids r drooping.. off to sleep!

May 06

went visiting to my xiaogu's place yesterday.
later in d afternoon, i walked over to my gram's(maternal) place which was rather near..
meant to accompany my gram...chat with her n all...
she cooked spicy crab..yummy!
i loved eating over at her place...before dinner, i could even have a nap..lol..pig hah~
also planned to have d mother's day celebration tml with my mum n gram of cos~ without my gram, dere wouldnt be my mum..or me.. yea.. i'm babbling...

today, met up with wanting n peiqin..shopped ard at orchard..i bought some stuff in preparation for my attachment.. had dinner at breeks at Taka.
Later on, left for holland v at harry's..
i arrived earlier..ray was still d same..sunshine manager..
auntie arrived n we had my fav "still got the blues" cocktail drink n so on..
the band came pretty late n d female singer called isabella if i'm not wrong..sang quite a no. of old n yet gr8 songs..like "close to you".....her voice is pretty gd..
as usual, we chatted over drinks..had quite a relaxing night!
Drink to a limit..not too much n not too little..perfect~
feeling tipsy yet still very sober...
time to sleep~

May 04

woke up at 10am plus n i switched on my handphone..seconds after^^ por por por por~ which meant messages.. my results for this semester is out.
HS1028 : B
HS1029 : B
HS1030 : A
HS1032 : A
HS1034 : C
HS1037 : B+

I'm glad it turned out alrite..

yest, played badminton with wanting,michelle n her fren at bukit gombak sports complex..Its been so long since i last played, i Knew my back or wrist r gonna hurt after tat..(plus i did not do any warming up) i also played with a pri sch kid boy(a coach is training him, so he asked if i wanted to have a match with him)..i was hesitant at first, wat if d young boi wins, i'll be so embarassed..anyway, i shoved tat thought away.... n i won.. was delighted at first...then realised, i only won a pri sch boi..not such a big deal yea...
It was fun playing n fooling ard..thanx to wanting who always helped me to pick up d ball..opps(shuttlecock i mean) cos my back hurts quite a lot..

I've been spending a lot lately..mother's day is coming..aunt's birthday is coming..my daily expenses..plus dere's a whole lot of stuff i wanna get...hmmm..gotta write out a shopping list!
though i may not be able to get them so soon...
I've got tons of things to do...reading my books, watching tv, exercising, preparing d stuff for my attachment..not to forget, being my own maid...

Busy?

Was having 3 days 2 nights "yiu" at my third aunt's place..(as quoted from xiaogu) from sat to mon.. cos i wanted to swim more n also xiaogu needed company as her husband has been always working late..

Sat(30/4)

woke up at 7am n went to jurong west blk 494 tat area dere to meet up with xiaogu to buy the ingredients for our DIY jap feast...also went to jp..then hailed a cab to cousin pauline's place.
Cousin pauline then accompanied me to a nearby specs shop to make my new specs. she made hers dere as well..n was cheap..
So a woman tested my eye n concluded my left eye is terrible(500 shan guang), right eye nil abt 100 longsightedness...gosh, d difference makes it hard for both eyes to fuse the image to my brain..so its kinda unbalanced~ i get so giddy! An old uncle dere who seems experienced used a rod or something small to massage my nerves(eye)..several areas..i tot it wont hurt but i was screaming out loud n tears just fall out unbearably...
Cos my nerves has been jammed...i gotta do the rubbing exercise for my eyes every now n then.. anyway, I LUV my new specs..pretty trendy i wld say..rectangle shape.. i was beaming in joy after i gave d deposit..finally found d one..makes it feel complete..hee~

After fetching michelle from her grandmother's hse, we were off to third aunt's place. While xiaogu n sangu prepared the ingredients.. me,cousin n michelle went down for a swim..
Had fun splashing n swimming~ also went to steam room for a steam..afterwhich, my hair was so soft cos i applied treatment cream to my hair before steaming..
Went up..n saw cousin linda(supposed she just came from a private sale of mac,origins n estee lauder)...she bought quite a lot..ranging from cosmetics to perfume package. I wanted estee lauder perfume called beautiful sheer but it was not sold.. anyway, cousin linda bought origins moisturiser n asked if i wanted one..i took d moisturiser cream while she had d lotion..(already started using it..:) very gd~

Started cooking at abt 5pm..grilled the chicken breast meat for salad..teriyaki chicken, teriyaki salmon, tempura n others..
Everything turned out perfect~ weather was lovely, food was fantastic considering it was d first time we prepared a jap feast, enjoying ourselves at the "tian tai" chit-chatting~
Watched dvd in d night..n then to sleep... instead of sleeping, we chatted again...tok abt everything..my family members n all..cousin linda was really a gd listener..plus she understands me alot( i sometimes wondered> y am i always so vulnerable n lousy, not strong at all..always allowing cousin linda to see me thru~) Not tat i hate it, jus somehow~ from wat she said abt me, its so true n its always been within me..i simply don wanna face it! I do care for ppl but i don show. i have to change this....
Sangu joined in d conversation so she n cousin linda kinda talked it out abt some family issues..lol~sangu was cute la..saying linda cousin don understand her n all...
Well, all in all..i think tat it wld be gr8 if every family member is able to be frank n talk it out n discussed calmly n rationally abt all matters....so dere wont be conflicts or anyone being unhappy..
As for me, i cant. Or rather, i need lots of time n patience to do tat~

Sun(1/5)

decided to go to the temple at bugis to pray..
cousin pauline n michelle had to go to her fren's birthday party so only the four of us went. Remembered the sun was scorching hot..temple was packed with devotees.. i prayed for my grandmother's gd health n got a bad lot. I shall forget abt it! cos its been weighing on my mind since..how bad it can be or am i not sincere enough?... Hai..
Lunch at bugis food court..bought four different dishes n shared~ better than one ppl eating one kind of food.. after tat, we shopped for a while n then cousin linda was off to her punggol hse to clean up.. me n my two aunts then went to parkway parade's giant to buy some necessities for sangu's hse.. ate porridge for dinner. Cousin Vincent was at home, we watched mrs world together..as predicted by him, Mrs Israel won. I liked Mrs Singapore(fandi ahmad's wife) though..
He gave me an accessory(pretty cute lo) so i took it..

Mon(2/5)

Right after i'm awake, i went down to swim alone. xiaogu don wan to swim..
Had fruits for breakfast..sangu referred to a nutritionist saying tat actually,its better to eat fruits before a meal n not otherwise. Cos when we do so, it will reduce d amt we eat(if we're eating a meal) Hence, healthy...ya..
Waited for my uncle to come fetch xiaogu n me.. he dropped me off at d specs shop. Intended to collect my specs...another torturous ordeal when d old man massaged my nerves..i felt brighter(my eyes)
I reached home with my sis telling me she will be getting registered in ROM next yr..
She's vexed on how to tell my mum who isnt too enthu abt my sis's bf..
Oh god, hopefully my sis doesnt leave me so soon..will miss her..
i scolded my younger bro n i regretted it..
Hate to regret but i always do..
From now on, i must think carefully before i say anything....don wanna hurt anyone anymore~