Confused or Depressed??/

i'm a terrible person..perhaps cos i've always been like this...so detestable(tats wat my sis n bro will feel)..cos i'll retort them back with words tat will put them way off!! From wat they say, i'm frustrated...anyway, i figured i'm always like this whenever i returned home from somewhere...(Just gotta stay clear of ME)

These days had been tough..i've been thinking deeply abt whether i can continue nursing.....lots of considerations cropped up n i'm very much troubled by it till i finally could not stand it..n broke down last night...cried on my bed till i fell asleep(don even noe when)..
got some advice from auntie, saying i've got to break down my own protective wall n go forward! Most important thing is to be happy!!! I need to overcome myself..no choice le..

just quarrelled with sis. i don wanna lend her money..haiz..wat to do..