Barely there...

i probably just scraped thru my exam today...gotta wait till results r out to know then..

Just seen the videos nikki put up...she sure had gr8 fun n the rest as well..=)

too bad i missed the fun..

my patience was tested to the limits today. first, intended to play bowling at taman jurong's superbowl..but was bummed cos its renovating..n the taxi driver who drove me there actually din hav change for my mere ten bucks...n i got to buy iced milo for the sake of paying him...haiz...

Not all..

Then, at home..my sis choose to shout at me while i'm having my afternooon nap...madness la..

Detestable!!!!!!!

I am so pissed i keep telling my inner self to control...let go..forgive n forget...whew~ not easy man.

AHHHHH~

exams!!

i will not believe it if u pass ur paper.. pure sarcasm from my dear sis.
Y so, cos i only started studying for my exam the day before. N i was watching tv the same time..

Honestly, i do regret not studying earlier...now i am lack of sleep n have huge eye bags...
But i simply don have a stronger will against temptations..watever..

For the next two papers coming up on sat n monday, i guess...I will try not to switch on d tv..=p

Hung out at nikki's place today after my paper..my house is out of electricity for a day.
Ate steamboat there..nice!

Nikki's birthday is tml..

~HAPPy BiRthDaY GaL~ may All WonDeRfuL stuff happen to you!

i stayed up the whole night watching a tvb serial..twelve episodes from 11pm to 6am..

Jon woke up for school and saw me...n said to me "u woke up so early?" In my heart, i secretly smiled..cant believe i've become an owl yet again.

After that, i went to sleep til 11am..

and continued watching..

yet to study..very dead.

For the first time, played playstation2 with sis n bro..driving game..race n all..so cool..i keep crashing the car..i kinda let out all my frustration by screaming..lol..

Letting go or simply throwing it all away?

i've always had this prob going on with my sis. i thought she cared for me unneccessarily whenever i don need her but when i do need her, she's not there for me. I simply hate it..so i flared up at her ever so often.

However, cousinlinda made me realise that it could be so that she's trying to be especially nice to me when she can and it happens that i simply don need it at that moment...but blames it on her when she's not ard.

I totally got her meaning there...but its not as easy as it seems..perhaps my eq is lower, or rather i choose to believe more in myself than change...my attitude.

Same goes for my dad's case, til now, they all think i should simply "fang kai" (forgive or let go)...

Be nice to him,spare a thought for him, care for him...

In everyone's eyes, i'm just a selfish kid who's stubborn and insensible...refusing to listen to ppl or heed ppl's advice. BUt, wat do they know!? Who doesnt like to be the nice, sweet, thoughtful gal that everyone likes>? Of cos, i would love to be one.. my aunt and cousin are emphasizing so much on it...haiz..xiaogu is this kind of person who thinks she can be one very nic3e person...and indeed she is doing it all so readily that immediately puts me to shame.

I wanna quit being so affected by it...i wanna ignore it, i wanna throw everything away n bury it.

However, it is always dug out one by one...adding a huge stone on my shoulder...slapping one big fat piece of my face.

Go ahead everyone~ be ur nice self, just let me go....i cant..i simply cant...i tried..

Forget abt it

Surprises as usual

my stepgrandma passed away last sun..she had cancer, i'm very sorry for her..

life is so fragile..

u never know what's gonna happen.

on tues nite after my lab lesson, i suddenly had a craving for roti prata..i asked auntie out..then i met richmond on the train n so he went out with us too..

Auntie drove us to holland v. i had seaweed soup as usual then we went over to siem reap.

Had some gd drinks with gr8 atmosphere probably all due to the romantic music played over there..

liked the dessert wine esp!

I watched "forty yr old virgin" with serene at causeway point...movie was hilarious..

Then mummy fetched me to sin ming rd, where stepgrandma's funeral was held..

Did some prayers for her..

Cousinpauline's fren saw my palm and told my fortune! hopefully i can change some of my probs.

~Results~

He said i'm stubborn and has a foul temper. BUt i can survive in any kind of environment. with some helpers...i will do well in life and be a boss. i gotta open up my heart(as in being forgiving i suppose) or else i will die in my own hands. I always "hu si luan xiang".. he doesnt encourage me to wed early in life.

Tats abt all...

I was tired after the prayers..wanted to sleep..so i slept in my dad's car and waited for them...

Inside the car, i had this sudden thought of learning to drive..a lot of my frens are either learning now..or have already passed. Partly due to their influence, can be a grown-up who drives and my own thought of being able to at least steal the car from my dad for some time so he cant drive his gf ard..wat a gr8 idea><

LOL..but it isnt as simple lo...

i have motion sickness..and i'm afraid of accidents, i panic..ah..i don have money..i don have guts.

Wat better than this? Such obstacles...i don know if i can try breaking thru..

paragon,coco latte, prata session

the plan for friday: get my presentation stuff ready(topic on exercise)

Somehow, i researched n was just stuck...don really know how to go abt presenting it..

So i simply forget abt it..maybe only a while...cos i kept thinking abt it whilst out with wendy n nikki.

It was wendy's sis birthday n they r going to devils bar...

Nikki helped me styled my hair..=) supposed messy look. I helped with hers too..i realised u do need to be skilful..not easy..lol..

We cant enter devils bar..so we simply stroll ard the streets..then headed for ramen..n decided to get ourselves high before going to another club...

Had 2 corona extra each, n also black cat..aftertat we realised perhaps we dont have time to finish drinking it(moreover eww, the smell was damn stong)

Quan shun came to join us for a while at paragon's 7 eleven staircase...n we chatted n had some gr8 laughs...thanks to nikki n wendy..=)

Weixiang met up with us n drove us over to cocolatte.. his driving skills ah~quite steady but i think he gets provoked so easily man...LOL!! something i said abt him driving slower than a taxi driver..Haa...

Geri n her fren was already at cocolatte when we arrived..

I din really like dancing there perhaps of the music n ppl...i guess when its real packed, u get more kick as well..(as were liquid room)

Later on, we headed to have supper or should i say early breakfast.. at jurong east..the prata was gd.

Reached home at 15 mins to 5am..luckily dad woke up late for work or he'll nag at me for sure.

Was freaking alert eventhough i should be tired..

So much for now..Oh, nikki n others r going to liquid room tonight..wont be joining them..so much to do for presentation.

Terrible Horrible!!!

I cant stand this feeling no longer! wat could be worse than having aaa... Blocked Nose..previously it was running nose la..

its horrible terrible~

imagine urself sneeezing ur nose out, n u just cant get the mucous out..at least not all.. n its kinda locked out behind my back of nose n slightly above my throat..god heavens..gagging feeling!!!

So now, i'm breathing thru my mouth. (well, Imagine opening ur mouth all the time^^)

Just hope the medication helps. The doc says to drink sugar solution n not water...wonders? so, i've been drinking coke with medicine. cool~

my appetite is huge recently though i'm sick..i think i'm gonna gain a few pounds soon. shit!

Should have taken mc from doc, now i'm regreting it badly!

i wanna sleep yet i still have lessons up to 4pm...yucks.

throat hurts

i'm having a bad flu~

been sneezing...feel feverish...

i guess it could be due to drinking..

mm..gotta take care then..(i think i'm like speaking to myself here..LOL)

have to study for health psycho later..test starts at 2pm tml.

i don have class on friday..cool!

wat an experience><

i never expected myself to say yes "i'll go"

never expected myself to be with nikki,geri n others queueing up outside liquid room

never expected auntie to say "she will go when she's high enuff"

never expected myself to actually go clubbing

never expected myself to drink raw liquor

never expected myself to dance

but certainly i expected my head to go spinning.. know y? drank like 4 or 5 erdinger n black cat(not a lot), vodka ribena n other drinks..

Before tat, i tot there's wasnt any kick...instead it came all together, plus the dancing n lights...all made me spin..

I thought all was fun...simply moving ard..

n just when everything ended, i couldnt see clearly...n decided to get out n wait for nikki n others outside.

I wasnt walking straight,head is trobbing..had to leave first..

i'm sure the taxi driver drove at his fastest speed cos he didnt want his car to stink..=p

hangover sucks! oh god, now i gotta study...

Gd Fun

HAd hell out of fun at siem reap last nite..cant imagine myself heading to holland v after attachment(should have been tired) But rather, i was quite looking forward to boozing! =p

risheng,mango,zhiwei,weixiang,rich,nikki,geri n auntie was there at siem reap when i arrived...

Drank only 2 pines of erdinger plus bailey's on d rocks n i'm high...funny though..i like the feeling..simply free of worries n restrictions..lol..

nikki told me abt the momo club or boozers friendster she set up n i'm named momo leen leen i think..lol..tats cool..

Slept very well n i'm full of energy now.. guess its time to head for books..

Oh, just remembered something...geri wore this perfume last nite tats real sweeet..mm..time for me to upload my collection of perfumes..=)

Reflecting

i've realised tat i really gotta work hard to learn more...clinical setting wise..i wanna find out more abt diagnosis, medications n etc...

tat is if i ever find the time to do it. Or rather i should say when i finally set my heart to do it.

Otherwise, i guess i'll be spending my time slacking(simply just being a couch potato)

I will have two days to be a gd student(this weekend, probably staying at home to mug)

Next tues got health psycho test. the week after, presentation by myself n also, an assignment of health record yet to complete. Mm..quite a number! Shall need lots of chocolate to charge myself up..lol..just got d urge for sweet stuff..god~ will i be diabetic? i do like to eat sweet stuff.....

enough said..wanna have my dinner, sis isnt back yet...when can i eat??? urgh!

as usual busy n tired.. its gonna be my last wk of attachment..then back to school..n exams...

yesterday was at san gu's place.. celebrated michelle's birthday in advance..san gu prepared some food..n cousin pauline's frens came over as well..i played badminton with michelle..lol..so cute, she kept laughing at herself for not being able to serve... later on, i played with cousinlinda..she's quite gd as an amateur..humble indeed..=)

She called me just now to ask me if my arm aches...cos her right arm aches a lot(its actually quite normal cos we havent been exercising n we exerted a lot of strength while playing..Lol)

She's going to thailand this friday..had asked her to buy me a bag if she sees one that is nice.

Cousinpauline is going to pulau rendang..snookering(hope i spelt it correctly) is so much fun...

Been watching another korean drama called "first love of a royal prince"..not bad lo..

Gotta finish up my case study..handing it up tml..