organise my thoughts!

finally my one week break starting from today!

yesterday after sch, went to isetan scotts dere to meet up with auntie, nikki n daniel..
nikki wanted to go hm so the 3 of us ate at this japanese restaurant at taman jurong.
"paper steamboat" they call it.
I like.

later on, daniel went hm too.
me n auntie went to siem reap at holland v for drinks..
sat at bar counter, chilled out..=))
Rahim d bartendar asked me to write their names in those "thank u" cards they have..
well, he din have to ask..will do so..but i regretted writing his name la..lolz..
n since, i had nothing better to do, i wrote on behalf of nikki n richmond n auntie..=p
i drank rum coke,kamikazi, bailey's skake, sour apple.
its either sweet or sour drinks..=D
left at 11pm plus..

i simply heart drinking cocktails..it makes me fly..u noe..light-hearted n comforting to d senses..

back to reality.
sister n brother moving out soon to mum's place.
i really hope mummy's financial burden will be loosen up in tat way..??
i'm gonna be alone(no one)
to come home to...
still, d evil witch is not eliminated yet..
wat should i do?
i'm not sure if i'm doing it correctly..
i cannot fake my feelings
change my thinking
pretend i can tolerate..(thou i need to)
i need to spill it all out when i have to..
i hate myself for snapping at ppl rudely..(even when they are concerned)
i tell them i don need their concern..(or rather convincing myself><)
wat i don say or say..
is to simply show my displeasure of this world(i created my tiny world instead)
d world tat never seems to be able to have both things.
u choose this, u forsake tat..
n if tat's d case, i shall go with it..
u forsake me.