missed!

MISS n misses..
i felt..

been a wk or so since i last blogged.
i miss my room n every single thing..
esp my bed..ooohh~
u can imagine HOW GLAd i was when i finally
could flung on my bed two days ago...
Been staying at my lindacousin's in-laws place,
it took me 20 min to walk to imh for work..
n i'm going back to stay tml nite til next friday..
(when imh attachment ends)

i wasnt used to the new environment...
u noe the patients are mentally ill n stuff like tat..
it can get scary..but slowly, i realised most of them are pitiable..
d nurse educator certainly enlighten us quite a bit!
Its an interesting attachment there..
we can organise activities for them..play n talk with them..


on friday nite, i had buffet at barcarrat with aunt stella,
aunt hazel n their "sisters n brothers"
enjoyed it..
later on, met up with iren,thomas n kelvin at winebar..
then, proceed on to zouk..
FOC..thomas used to be working there..
had vodka redbull, vodka cranberry n margaritas...
went hm pretty early at 1am..

sat: shopping with lindacousin, sangu n xiaogu..
ate at indochine, lemongrass..
i bought a white pants at forever 21..
cabbed to legenda with sangu n xiaogu..
took a swim n steam at 8pm..
by then, i was so tired!
slept at 10pm..

woke up early next morning..
cousinpauline drove sangu,lindacousin n me to her new house.
helped to clean up!
i like the interior design..modern n homey!
at abt 3pm, cousinpauline n me headed back to my place.
she had a performance at padang..she's the wushu coach..busy busy she is.
rested for a while..
then, left hm to meet iren at jp for dinner..
i bought a SK jewellery necklace specially for my four-leaf clover pendent.
which unfortunately, it came off from my hp accessory earlier in d morning..
could tat be a bad omen?
hope not.

iren got her salary n spent it on two pretty watches..
i'm tempted to buy a watch too!
usually, godfather buys me watches..
but he's quite busy..
i'm thinking of nike, tag heuer..
expensive..

also, a newurbanmale bag..
need to wait long long ler.....

memories

went to marina square's topshop.
bought a white blouse with black tie..i like!
i would have shopped longer if i could..
went over to gram's place..
slacked ard..had a nap..=p
by evening time, all my aunts came..
we talked abt the old times!
like how my aunt stella saved me from a horrifying beating..
lolz..
i owed her one.
=D

had dinner, soup was the best!
my little cousins..keith n ethel came today..
real nice to see them..
=))

time is racing..
soon..attachment in like 2-3 days..arghhhh!!!!
i'm gonna start packing tml..
lots to pack.
did i mention i will be staying over at cousinlinda's in-law place in hougang for 2 wks?
IMH is way too far..i had no choice.
so many hassles...haiz..
i hope i can get used..
a bit odd..i'm gonna miss my room~

okie, until the next time i go online..
leaving my blog for a while..
tata.

casual day

woke up late at noon..
sat on my bed, stoned..
after a while, grandmother called.
went over to mummy's place..
bum ard, got bitten by mosquitos..arghhhhh...
evil insects!!
i heard from a fren tat mosquitos are attracted to type B blood group peeps..
oh dear, i belong to D grp.

grandmother came over too..
nagged a little, as usual..
not at me..she loves me..lolz!
at how messy the place is..

after a short while, both of us walked to aunt stella's place.
bum ard..
then, uncle patrick came to drive her back hm..
waved gdbye n promised to go over her place tml for her yummylicious soup.
aunt stella prepared dinner.
somehow, it always taste gr8..even if it's as simple as a dish of vegetables.

met up with iren,kelvin n thomas at wisma indochine.
they had already started eating...
i was late..
ordered banana split.
i think i'm gonna be banana girl soon..
=p

walked to tangs n iren finally decided on d green strips tubetop..
its so gd to have the spending power..i say!

okies, its time to hit dreamland..
going to marina square tml early..
n to gram's place.
nite ppl~

Sunday a raining day

aunts came over for mahjong.
san gu found out tat i was just as pissed with my dad as before,
came into my room to "counsel" me..
she thought i had forgiven my dad.
i never will.
maybe i cant.

i hate.
everyone sides with him.
the man needs his face tats y he pretends.
yucks.

i shall think no more..no answers anyway.


mum called me today.
grandpa is so violent. he hit mum.
i wanna see mummy asap!

an eventful day!

i slept over at mum's place on friday nite...
tat was after all d hoo-ha stupid nonsense dad caused to me..
was pretty upset. yet not a thing can be done.
met iren for dinner..
bum ard til like 11pm +
kelvin came n drove us for supper..
prata.


next day, went back hm early..
watched vcds all the way..
got changed at 3pm +
iren's giving us her birthday treat so i thought of wearing a dress to surprise her..
met up with peishi 1st at jp..
then cabbed over to jurong hill..
waited for iren,yilee n kelvin to come..
well, we ordered indonesian cuisine.
very filling as always..
then, peishi had to leave early...
the four of us continued on to ms kbox..
serene, ee n thomas joined...
sang n took pixs..fun!

wanted to chill out at someplace..
winebar..too packed.
alexandra rd...shit happens.
demsey rd we finally settled on.
i say this Ps cafe really has gd ambience!
europe kinda feel~italian or spanish music~makes u wanna dance ballroom~
i'll prefer it over anywhere anytime..lolz..one waiter is esp cute!
i drank hoegarden..^^

carried on, we decided to have teochew porridge for supper..
on our way, roadblocks!
luckily our driver kelvin drank only lime juice.

reached hm at 2am +
tired but i din wanna sleep..watched vcds again.

now, its already 2pm+
i'm feeling hungry again.
i'm broke.
should stick to maggi mee rights?

life's a mess

i guess life is all abt problems n how u solve or get thru them safely..
n if u dont, u feel troubled.
as simple as tat, but ever hard.

there's so many "Ys"..????
y make things so complicated..cut away all those yssss...
sail thru life simply.

i tend to think a lot..
perhaps it isnt gd.
y this, y that..but no one can help me.
yeah. no one..

.......................................


din sleep well..tat stupid bitch n her family were screaming early in d morning.
so irritated! ARGHHH~~~~~~~~~
i had to get out.
got changed n left home.
went to mummy's place.
when she came back at abt 3pm, i complained to her abt how bad daddy had been n all those shits... she said to ask me to accompany her to the lawyer's. she's gonna sue dad.
should have done so earlier.
she wouldnt have suffered so much.
i thought it may make things worse if we sued him, he may repel...(u noe how rubber band works? d more u stretch, d more force u'll get back in return)

been really angry these days... i'm trying to forget..i keep going out..
still, things remain the same.

how i hope~
my entries r happy ones.

it's already 1am, i'm not tired.
came back hm an hr ago, met up with iren n thomas for dinner at tiong bahru plaza.
watched a movie.
had nothing better to do,
chilled outside mac..
afterwhich, kelvin came by after work..
drove us back.
he told us abt his clients..some big shots who just arrived in sg..
crown royal family or something..
how impressive!
$$$$$
lots!
lolz =p

clueless!!

hey, diary..

things are moving,
events are happening,
people are always changing,
but the truth always stays the same.
we cant do without money.

ok, seriously.. i think..
i'm rather unhappy all due to 'money'
yea, i'm just 19.
a student afterall.
just needs to focus on studies..
fortunate compared to many homeless kids, orphans..etc.
but y is it tat so?

studied a little abt developmental psychology..
there's these phases abt satisfying our basic needs before being able to move on to another higher level of development.
so it's understandable that i finally cant tolerate with my DAD cos
he's depriving me of my basic needs!?!!!!!!!
irritating.
only giving more excuses to be his stingy self.
avoiding responsibilites..
i can NEVER understand him..don bother to.
ARGHHH..
are there any spells tat will make our dad give their daughters $$ willingly>?
lolz..



watever..
yesterday, had lunch with iren.
her 1st day work at moe.
later on after she knocked off,
we headed for dinner n chilled at "essential blues"
her fren, thomas joined us as well.
maybe cos i drank too much tea..
i felt ill when i reached hm..
all shivery n feverish n giddy..
quickly drank lots of h2O.
slept thruout the night...
felt better today..
now, i'm all ready to kick some ass..

gd news or bad news?

left hm at abt 11am..went over to mum's place..
did nothing but watch tv..bored.
sis, been working. don even have time to speak to me.
stupid! i asked her a simple qn, she questioned my motive.
there is none lo. i just miss her..
doesnt she noe?

called iren out.
met at holland v.
chilled at Gelare'
ate waffles, chit-chat..
then, weixiang came over..
drove us to jurong hill for dinner..
the indonesian n jap cuisine sure fills up our stomach!
nice.

reached hm, had my bath..
went online, check schedule of attachment.
wat a shock i got!
supposedly, tml attachment starts for a period of 2 mths..then break for a mth.
now, it changed!
2wks break,
6wks attachment,
2wks break,
2wks attachment.

i seriously don noe if i should be feeling glad abt this change.
i wanted d 1mth vacation...
so prolly, i can go overseas?
but now, its all messed up.
darn.
anyway, at least..
vacations NOW!

anyone? PEOPLE? ASK ME OUT YEAH!!!!
lolz~

spent d whole day at gram's,
accompanied her, watched vcd with her, had naps together..
lolz..i feel so warm n loved.
my grandpa is really nice.
he gave me 10 bucks when he knew tat i was broke.
he said he would have given me more if he has it.
i feel somewhat ashamed cos grandpa isnt earning much..
anyways, i promised them tat i will bring them to hk (they loved it there.)
when i've saved enuff.
this is a promise i will never forget. ^_*

my phone went low bat when i needed it most.
so, i had no choice but to go hm after a haircut.
couldnt contact my frens earlier..
so i guess its another day past.
off to be sg maid.

exams done; attachment starts

finally finished my exams!
this last paper, i thought it was pretty difficult..
partly cos i din study hard enuff.
oh wells, hope for the best!

edwin, my tennis pal taught me a lot today..
i'm going back to playin this game..
wow, seems like my skills had gone rusty.
edwin aka uncle, he's quite old le lo..24 i think.
lolz..he's rather bitchy for a guy.
goodness! so naggy..
kept reminding me to keep fit, eat less, drink water more.
(i noe all tat stuff la, don lecture me')

i'm aching all over..my feets, calfs r screaming!
not to mention, my auntie visit so incidentally...errhhh!
coolz..
now i'm stuck at home doing nothing but rambling abt..
i so wanna join iren n ee n her colleagues for karaoke..
but, i passed it..only shopped for a little while at marina square n left.

bought a polo tee from dorothy perkins with my voucher.
how nice!

okies, i have 2 more days to relax b4 its nightmare..2mths of attachment non-stop..
don like d idea at all..
gd part, i hav 1 mth of holiday in june.
ALREADY l@@kin forward to it.
=D

very sleepy..
gd nite world

Your Personality Is

Guardian (SJ) You are sensible, down to earth, and goal oriented.Bottom line, you are good at playing by the rules. You tend to be dominant - and you are a natural leader.You are interested in rules and order. Morals are important to you. A hard worker, you give your all at whatever you do.You're very serious, and people often tell you to lighten up. In love, you tend to take things carefully and slowly. At work, you are suited to almost any career - but you excel in leadership positions. With others, you tend to be polite and formal. As far as looks go, you are traditionally attractive. You take good care of yourself. On weekends, you tend to like to do organized activities. In fact, you often organize them!

The Three Question Personality Test

ok, no more. got to study le..one more to go. JIA YOU to me!!!

Your Hawaiian Name is:

Kalea Akela

What's" your Hawaiian Name?

my new name! lolz

wed i like..

just came back home.
got a lift from ee's colleague's fren..
funny how we got to know each other..haha..

had a long day.
1st, bio test at 10am..went ok..i spotted one qn..*grinz*
felt bored, asked iren out for lunch..
i waited pretty long.. my *fren "mr.patience" came up again.
after tat, we also met up with this guy named thomas..
(met him earlier some nights before..ee's colleague)
So we had lunch at coffee club..
then, walked over to some far away place(walking dist though.)
to play pool..

was gr8, played some nice shots..lol~ quite proud..yea yea!
but iren n thomas played really gd as well..=)
not long after, his fren..calvin came to join..
played n played..til it was time for dinner..
4 of us headed to indoor coffee shop..then calvin went to work.

did a little window-shopping..din get to see the flip-flops i like..=(
but lucky iren, she bought a pretty dress..
=D seriously, the dress looks gd on her.

lalalaaa....
calvin finished work.
drove us to Altivo..
was a fabulous chill out place!!!
=DD
drank peach margarita, beer..
wat a nice way to forget everything!
i love booze~~~!! not to forget my frens!!
^_*

HATRED

OK, THIS IS IT! I DON HAVE A DAD.
HE SUX N HE'S DEAD.
I DON MIND CURSING HIM, PERHAPS ALL THE BETTER..LET THAT WHORE N HER FAMILY ALL GO TO HELL.

THEY ARE PATHETIC BEGGERS, LIARS N HYPOCRITES!!!!!
SOMEONE SHOULD PUNISH THEM.
I'M SERIOUS,
I'M FUMING,
MY HEART HURTS A 1000 MANY!

HE DON GIVE A DAMN TO ME,
Y SHOULD I BOTHER.
HE'S ALL BULL SHIT.
PRETENDING N ALL.
HE SAID " I BOUGHT THE LUGGAGE, SO I CAN GIVE IT TO ANYONE."
WAT THE F***!!!!
HE ONLY PAID FOR 40 BUCKS, N I WAS THE ONE WHO WENT TO BUY IT.
N IT WAS FOR MY USE.
HOW DARE HE USE THAT TONE OF VOICE WITH ME.

SO THIS MEANS I'M NOTHING BUT A TOY IN HIS HANDS THAT HE CAN THROW IT ANYTIME HE WANTS.
I'D ENOUGH.
I'M EXHAUSTED..
REALLY, ITS EITHER I DIE OR HE DIES..
SCARY HAH?

I ONLY HAVE 2 ROADS.

1- CONTINUE STAYING IN THIS DAMN HOUSE N SUFFER D SHITS, WISHING I WAS DEAD..

2- LEAVE N NEVER GO BACK, THATS WAT TAT ASSHOLE B**** BEEN WAITING FOR..

EITHER WAY IS HELL.
PLEASE GOD,
I'M FEELING MISERABLE..I WANNA LEAVE BUT CAN I?


I HATE HIM, I FEEL LIKE TEARING EVERY SINGLE SHIT OUT OF HIM INTO PIECES FOR TREATING ME LIKE THIS/ HE'S NOT HUMAN.

EXCUSE MY LANGUAGE.

exams

two papers down, 2 more to go..
i just hope i can pass..
seriously, this sem..i aint putting in effort..*prays hard*

i think i'm kinda torturing myself..
watchin tv shows then study at night when i'm all so tired..
i need a gun pointing to my head. ^^

went to clementi to have my hair dyed..
this time a darker tone.
i realised i always head to d salon on impulse..
still, i liked the change! =))

bought my fav pork porridge for lunch..
i'm over at mummy's place..alone..no idea y i din go back home.
i stayed over last night to study as well.
now, i'm missing my lovely bed at home.

ARGHH~!!
bio paper on wed.
its not gonna be easy..
i should head home soon to mug..

too fast, not ready

i realised my brain isnt functioning well..
n its only my first final exam paper yesterday..
still have 3 more to go.
i'm really out of time..to finish studying tat is.
serves me right la..haiz!

had dinner at long john silvers with cousin benedict, aunt stella n her fren.
it was my treat to them since ben scored pretty well for his exams.
=)

met up with iren at cine.
luciky by then, the rain has stopped.
else, i'll be soaked.
i wanted to catch the movie 'failure to launch'..
so, she bought tixs..
n we quickly grab some sushi before the show starts.

the movie was gd i say!
we did a little retail therapy after the show.
i wanted to buy another slipper just like my Havaianas.
after trying on many flip-flops, i decided on this white straps, red sole Braziliano Praia.
i just did a google on newurbanmale.
I"M SO IN LOVE with the flip-flops..its looks pretty..lolz!

the both of us thought of having some drinks..
went to boat quay, ee was at this destiny pub with her colleagues..
we shook hands with them, had martell with green tea.
left for iguana at 11pm +..together with ee.

serene also came to join us after a concert.
was all nice..did some catching up on our recent happenings.
we had two macho margaritas; mango n blueberry.
in the end, iren got a bit high..lol..
we got back home at 2-3 am or so..i cant remember.

now, all i need to do is get my head going..have to study for next paper on professional nursing ethnics and maternity..2 modukles in one test paper.
i'm gone!!!!